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newness

In Uncategorized on November 6, 2009 by rick

I’m about to start my last few weeks of work at JJ Bean and my last few weeks if work in customer service retail.  I could not be happier about this.  I’ve made the decision to get on with it and start something new.  Thus soon a close will be brought to a couple chapters of my life, and the overarching narrative of making cappuccini will finally see its end.  A journey that started with starbucks back in 2004, made a few other stops along the way, and provided me a living for many years is nearly over.

I’m sad about the part where we leave Vancouver.  Things have been so good here and we have done so well.  But after a year of looking for work in some sort of new and interesting field and failing to find it, I’ve made the decision to finish my post-secondary education.  I know what I want to study and I know why.  And I know I can no longer take toiling in the trenches of customer service, a place where there is no satisfactory future for me.  Maybe a return to Vancouver will be another chapter further along.

The autumn of 2009 has been a time of endings and beginnings, realizations, revelations, discoveries.  I’ve been having a hard time being retrospective as of late, and I think this is thoroughly a good thing.  I’m content with how things are, indeed happy.  I’m happy about the plans that have been made.  And now I’m enjoying, just enjoying how things are going.

 

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In status on November 6, 2009 by rick

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In status on November 6, 2009 by rick

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Fini.

In Uncategorized on September 24, 2009 by rick

For the past four months I have been unable to publish anything online, if you know me, you know why.  I missed publishing photos on my photoblog and flickr, I’ll even say I missed keeping up with faraway friends on Facebook.  Oddly enough though, I didn’t miss writing here.  Maybe because life was busy, maybe because after going out and taking photographs then processing them it’s much easier to just post them, as opposed to writing something.  Whereas in the past, the words flowed naturally, now it takes some effort.  As far as a chronicle of my life goes, my photos are arguably more effective as reminders of times past.  This is all to say, I think it’s time to retire The Asidistra Files, in case anyone cares.  This blog sporadically chronicles four years of my life.  During those four years, so much has happened.  I’ve travelled to two other continents, lived on a secluded island, and in a teeming metropolis.  I’ve learned so much and done so much.  In large part this blog was a journal of angst and transition, and also of discovery and joy.  Cliche cliche etc.  So my blogging will now be primarily visual, over at lifeundefinedphoto.wordpress.com

I will leave now with the lyrics to the Stars song that I misappropriated the title of this blog from (which Stars appropriated from a George Orwell book I haven’t read)

All the umbrellas in London
Couldn’t hide my love for you
All the rain on Thamesside
Couldn’t stop shining through
I dreamt of you last night
Lying next to me in blue
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn’t hide my love for you

Run to the window and call out my name
We’ll meet where the sun goes to hide from the rain
From the rain, from the rain

All the umbrellas in London
Couldn’t hide my love for you
When everyone else is hiding
Rainy Sundays drunk at two

You’ll whisper sweet lies to me
And one of them will be true
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn’t hide my love for you

The gloom of the city at evening is still
You whisper come to me
And I always will
Always will, always will

All the rain in this town
And still the sky is blue
Saint James Square is teeming with doves
And that sunset they flew

Across the darkening city
To an attic room for two
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn’t hide my love for you

I counted all the lights
They don’t shine as bright
They don’t pierce the night like you do
Like you do, like you do
Like you do, like you do
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn’t hide my love for you
All the rain on Thamesside
Couldn’t stop shining through
I dreamt of you last night
Lying next to me in blue
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn’t hide my love for you

Run to the window and call out my name
We’ll meet where the sun goes to hide from the rain
From the rain, from the rain

All the umbrellas in London
Couldn’t hide my love for you
When everyone else is hiding
Rainy Sundays drunk at two

You’ll whisper sweet lies to me
And one of them will be true
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn’t hide my love for you

The gloom of the city at evening is still
You whisper come to me
And I always will
Always will, always will

All the rain in this town
And still the sky is blue
Saint James Square is teeming with doves
And that sunset they flew

Across the darkening city
To an attic room for two
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn’t hide my love for you

I counted all the lights
They don’t shine as bright
They don’t pierce the night like you do
Like you do, like you do
Like you do, like you do

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Time Capsules

In blog, retrospective, time on May 22, 2009 by rick Tagged: , ,

I think one of the biggest yet most overlooked unforseen consequences of the internet in general and blogging in particular is the access all of us have to random time capsules and snippets of people’s lives that they themselves have likely long forgotten about.  We leave a trail of bread crumbs on the internet: blog posts, comments on others’ blogs and sites, memberships and post on other sites (like Flickr),and so on.

I alone have nearly a half dozen (most abandoned) blogs, most of which are still online.  I started at Blogger, made a few posts, then abandoned blogging for a couple years, picking it up again back in 2005.  I started with Myspace, started another Blogger, went over to Livejournal, and finally abdicated them all for WordPress.

The first blog, I had completley forgotten about until I went to register a new one at Blogger.  I was suprised to find my email already registered and even more suprised to find entries from a time when drinking and listening to punk rock were by far my chief concerns.  It was a bizarre feeling, and really fun.  I had found this time capsule, planted years ago.

And it’s not just me.  I have several friends who used to blog, many of which have left those old journals online.  There’s nothing like piecing together particular memories of my life through the writing of other people.

Before the internet, this was unprecendented.  What would you do?  Go rummage through someone’s house looking for old diaries and notes?  Of course, instead, you could go ask the people in question about that time, but that’s nothing like the unfiltered in-the-moment account you get from a blog written during the time in question.

The rapid rise and fall of myriad social networking sites is the main contributing factor here.  People get on myspace because everyone else is.  At some point many move on, to whatever new site is popular.  They often leave in their wake these time capsules.  Blogging blew up a few years ago, everyone was doing it.  And those blogs, though they may not have been updated in a very long time, still sit there.

I’ve written before about how valuable it is for me to go back and revisit feelings and experiences through what I wrote about them.  It provides some amazing perspective on how much I have or have not changed.  Same holds true for the online writings of friends.

(I should say here, I am a very introspective, and retrospective person.  I get nostalgic very easy.  I’ve learned that nostalgia when overused represents a crutch, a replacement for an unsatisfactory present. I’ve also learned that it can distract from a perfectly satisfactory present.  I’ve also learned that it can provide perspective to current experience, and incentive to keep living a life that can be looked back fondly upon.  As I’ve learned to control over intellectualization I’ve also had to learn to control nostalgia.  I think nostalgia is what compells us to attempt to recreate past glories (and always come up short). I believe what we should be doing is creating new ones in new ways, recognizing that part of why a certain time in our lives was good was because it was unprecendented, new and fresh, trying to be nothing, yet becoming something great.

I strolled of the path a bit there didn’t I?)

I just think many of these old and defunct blogs (as well as long maintained ones) are a great thing to have out there.  A link to the past, a time capsule to dig up to see where things were at however long ago.  It’s interesting that the side effect of something made to bring us a never ceasing flow of up to the second information should have such a side effect isn’t it?

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In Uncategorized on May 21, 2009 by rick

So it’s been an epic few days.  Emotional rollercoaster.  Faeryll and I just found out that something we thought would be resolved next week will have to wait until September.  This is, however, a pretty good thing, it’ll just require even more patience.

After a weeklong battle with a raft if insidious viruses, my computer gave up the ghost.  I wasn’t able to tell at the time whether it was the viruses or a hard drive failure, or a hard drive failure caused by viruses.  I took the opportunity to jump the good ship Microsoft, using a Ubuntu livecd to rescue my data then wipe my hard drive.  I liked it so much I decided to install Ubuntu as my full time OS, and a couple days into the Linux experience, I am really liking it.  I’ve managed to get most of my favourite programs on it, or replacements thereof.  I find it’s way less resource draining on my old laptop than XP too.  One problem- no Lightroom.  I tried an emulator, no dice.  And there deosn’t appear to be a suitable replacement.  I’m thinking of installing XP on a partition just to run Lightroom.

Not having Lightroom means no processing for my raw DNG files.  This means I’ll be shooting alot of jpegs and trying to do my best with in camera processing.  I think I’m also going to shoot a lot of film.

So ends up I will be heading to Vernon twice in the next three weeks.  I am actually pretty happy about this.  It’s the Okanagan.  I get to hang out, see old friends, and generally relax.

What a boring post!

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Visual Essay!

In essay, photo, vancouver on May 13, 2009 by rick

I warned you this was coming: My visual essay at Regarding Place, just published. So what are you waiting for, go check it out.